Blah is all I have to say about today.
My friends were all very supportive of my decisions, which was really realllllly helpful. I also talked to him a lot, which makes me feel so much better too. WE ARE NOT BREAKING UP. I have no intention on ever ending it with this boy, he is amazing.
I am just not able to give myself completely to him right now, and I want to get there so bad! He deserves nothing less. IT IS SO HARD not to run back to him now and say I am sorry for putting him through this. But I already did put him through it, now I have to make it all worth it.
I have never done anything like this before in my life, it’s really weird. I feel like once I get over the shock maybe I will feel better and learn something. But right now I just want him back, I keep having flash backs of all the amazing times we have had. I know this is a good thing, and years from now (after our happily ever after) I will not regret doing it. I just have to push through it.
HELP?
