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Mar15

Decisions

I decided to take a break with the boyfriend of two years… Why you may ask? Because I enjoy making myself miserable.

While this is 100% true, I am also SCARED to death about how much I need him. I am so used to being this independent girl, one who only had to worry about herself. He is turning me into this person who is madly in love, depending on him to save the day. He always saves the day, I always let him. I almost started crying the other day because he pays for everything, and I couldn’t afford to buy him dinner. I don’t cry in front of ppl often, so that is saying a lot.

I don’t even give a shit about how much it hurts me, what makes me cry is how mad he is at me. Not mad really, but sad/disappointed. I let him down, I hurt him. For that I will never truly be forgiven.

wow… what is my problem?

22 notes #kevin #love

  1. thestylefile answered: continued the stronger you are as an individual, the stronger you can be in a relationship. good luck
  2. theblurredimage answered: This is the stuff that lifelong regrets are made of
  3. katieklassified answered: Sometimes you just need time alone. I took a break with my boyfriend of a year back in September, and now we’re stronger than ever. Chin up.
  4. seeyourgypsy answered: you need to let yourself be loved. YOU ARE WORTH IT.
  5. everythingandnothing answered: why did you break up with him? it seems like there wasn’t any problem besides the fact that you were so in love :(
  6. 206bones answered: I understand. I seem to always abandon things b/c of my own issues. And, maybe you both will work it out. And you just need some time.
  7. sheissuigeneris answered: Coming from another independent girl, it may be tough, but you’ll look back and realize your decision was what worked for you.
  8. pugglechronicles answered: You will be wonderful- promise.
  9. alisgravenil answered: You’re terrified, understandably. If he loves you, he can and will fully forgive you. Don’t let that be your worry.
  10. awkwardlyawesome answered: You are a truly beautiful person. Appreciate the time you have a part and cherish the time you had together. Love is tough, kid, but worth it
  11. mnabi answered: Yes, you can have both. It is jsut balance, everyday.
  12. lovecatsandcircumstance answered: you can do it.
  13. justspeakeasy answered: Sometimes breaks are for the best. You seem to be having a rough time so maybe you just need some alone time. If its meant to be it’ll be.
  14. myweighttheultimaterollercoaster said: I used to be the same way and the reason was because I was afraid that something would not workout and I would end up all alone again. No matter how Miss Independent you think you are, there is always that gap for love.
  15. heremotionsickness answered: You have to let yourself be vulnerable, even if it’s scary as shit. Once you realise it’s not a bad thing you’ll be happy with it.
  16. comeflyaway answered: get your independence back, remind yourself you can do it. then try again. don’t sacrifice love or independence, you can have both =)
  17. theoceanandthesky answered: love is terrifying. but you still deserve it.
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